Well things change
In less than 10 seconds
I was kick starting my scooter
One kick, Two Kick, Three Kick..Four Bam!
What just happened? Ow My ankle. I'm okay. Nope. Not okay
I was crying when J came back out. My ankle instantly started swelling.
I couldn't walk into the house
J had to carry me
Good thing is that I don't think it broke. But a very bad sprain. I've been icing it. The pain eventually subsided after some IB800. Greens. and Spiked coffee.
I've eaten 600 calories. Right now I feel kind of sick. I don't want to eat anymore today. I don't know how long it will be until I can do cardio. I'm so depressed at the moment because the gym really gives me release.
I believe in God
I don't blame God for things like this
or car wrecks
But sometimes... I just wonder
is this punishment?
am I being tested to see how much I can deal with?
because i'm wearing thin
(figuratively speaking. i am a fat lard)
I want to step it up. I want to just be back down to 120. I will be. I just don't
want to resort to fasting, but sometimes it feels so good. I have a family dinner
sunday. Will i eat? Will I fast the rest of today and tomorrow.
Sorry this post is a downer. I need some uplifting. I'm going to go try and sleep
for a big