Tired

I went to the doctors yesterday.  The doctor had me take a survey to try and determine what I could possibly be dealing with.  I wasn't enough of anything to really be diagnosed.  She said most likely I'm dealing with situational depression.  She gave me some mild anti depressants.  I told her I didn't want to gain weight, and I didn't want to be a zombie.  I googled the brand and looked at the reviews.  I felt really happy that most of them were positive, and only two reviews mentioned a weight gain.  In fact a read quite a few that they lost their appetite.  I'm still working out and if I noticed any gain I'll talk to the doctor right away..gaining would only make things worse.  I've been on it for two days, and its made me lose an appetite.  It will take a week or two to be more in my system but I already do feel as though I have more control.  With life, with eating.  Its great.

I worked out yesterday-forced myself to go the the gym, but once it was all said and done of course i was glad i went.  I went this morning as well 45 minutes on treadmill.  Abdominal work, and (something i'm horrible at) stretching.  I ate before i took my pill but  I haven't had an appetite since and I love it.  

I'm still at my hump..but i'll get past it soon.  I'm looking more and more toned and that means more than just weighing less.  I've done the skinny fat before, and its not pretty.  I've also done the skinny skinny and that just takes time :)

This lady was in at the salon today.  Told me "DON'T BE VEGAN"  I was pissed.  Very loudly she told me I was stupid, I would have health issues(hun you don't even know me), if I ever had kids(which I probably won't) will have issues.  Bitch, shut up.  I'm skinny, you're fat.  You're loud.  I know how to take care of myself.  I know about nutrition.  I know how to take care of myself.  And its enough that i struggle with an ED.  End of RANT

Don't let anyone push you around.  Be yourself.  

xoxo