You're not alone

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

xthinforever

You really are such a beautiful person. Thank you for taking the time to read my posts. I often feel like no one understands or cares about me, but since starting my blog I've found a small niche of people that I can relate with, and its really brought me some hope. Maybe one day I can be an inspiring person just as you are.

My blog used to be quite the depressing thing. But everyone goes through different emotions in their life. I think my emotions back then were that of utmost caos. I forgot who I was. The aftermath of it all is still something I'm dealing with. Binges, for example. I feel disgusted to think of how much I would binge. Not even a normal person would eat that much. But i couldn't stop myself until my stomahc was so full I was ready to purge.

shudder

Its haunting to think about really. I'm almost 12 hours into my fast. I haven't decided when I'll break it. I'm going to go on a long trail run with my sister tomorrow night, so I know I'll need to feul my body with a shake and some other carb like food. Maybe I'll do it 2 hours before I run. Then I want to go back to fasting most the week.

I hope everyone is doing well. Thanks to everyone who supports.

2 comments:

Matilda B. said...

hehe yup that's what we're all here for right! :) hang in there! :)

xthinforever said...

awww thanks, lovey! :) that was so nice of you. you ARE inspiring. i admire you. i think you have such a sheer will and determination that only most people could dream about. i love your blog and wish you would post more. <3

im glad you have become stronger and got through the hard part of your life.. because we all have those. (and believe me girl, i could out eat you anyday!) just hang in there honey, i am always here. <3