Tired

So far today I've been staying strong

Breakfast: Trail Mix coffee 200 ish
Lunch: apple 60-70 cals

Sometimes I feel like giving up. Letting my body have control. My life would be so much happier without my ed. Getting help. But then I think about how much control I'd have to give up. I think about gaining weight and that scares me. Thats when I look at myself in the mirror and decide that it is easier this way. Even if I end up lonely, I have myself, I have my ed. I cried last satruday, hard. I started hanging up pictures to inspire me. As I was bawling I told myself I'd never really need anyone as long as I could have myself. If that makes any sense.

Stay strong

GO ORANGE