I talked to P(my best friend) earlier this morning. He has about 5 months left until he gets home. He sent me an email telling me how he still hoped deep down inside we could have another chance together. He also said that any guyfriends or boyfriend better be aware that he's coming home december 9th to take me back.
My heart is his in all honesty. I love my boyfriend, J, but part of me still belongs to P. I don't know who I'd be happier with. I don't know what the future will entail. I just know life is about to get rocky. I also know I'm going to continue losing weight.