I ran a mile!! In heavy shoes, and i have shinsplints..but my ankle didn't swell!
I worked out with the team doing a lot of leg and abs
I got in a fight with J monday night. I freaked out, i think because i haven't been taking my medication. It was painful to be near him, painful to be away. We work together so that was fun. We're good now. I'm so stupid but he puts up with my shit. I also re touched my roots, and toned my hair. My hair is now a lavendar blonde. Its different, its weird..but so am I. I like it.
I made it to the gym :) I did about 45 minutes of cardio and 15 minutes of weights. I also went tanning. Shh. its a little secret, it makes you look thinner. Last night J came over to my new apartment. I made him some food and we played nintendo. While we were trying to fall asleep we started talking about food. He told me how much he'd eaten yesterday:
2 cups of coffee
a cup of noodles
He then asked me "Do I have an ED?" I said the difference between him and a person with the disorder is that they conciouslly starve themselves. But you however just drink coffee and eat now and then. I told him he should spend money on food, not coffee. I told him how he needs to try and get way more than 1000 calories a day. at least double.
Can I really be talking to him like that?
I think I can. Because he is so underweight. His chest bone pokes me when we cuddle. He has no but, just bone. I love him and I want him to have energy, he is always tired.
Am I hypocritical? Bleh.
Stay strong everyone! THanks for your support.