b: peaches - 175
soy hot cocoa
Abs, shoulders, back, triceps
Eliptical 45 minutes, burning 415 cals
This photo illustrates what muscles a hair dresser gains. yummy(not) see it under the collarbone?
I am pretty sure that from cutting hair.
I had a little break down today. I don't like my body. I don't like it at all. Lyndee was so nice to hear me whine, and give me some encouragement.
Here's what was said during therapy session:
"What worries you about inpatient?"
no control, I'll have to communicate with people, will they put me on a pedastool and strip me from who i am? will i even want to recover? or will I just stick through it and then revert back to old ways.
"You are going to a place where you are no longer alone. These people, and other patients, know how you feel, and have possibly shared what you are going through. Instead of being the minority, you are part of a majority"
Its weird to think about. I mean, it would be like all of us bloggers getting together in one room. I won't be alone, and I won't have to whine to people who can't understand what it is to have an eating disorder.
I'm down 1 pound today. I thought I was gaining. Keeping my chin up, and going to try and tone back up so I like my body more