i've had a very emotional weekend. I cried all day saturday, missing P, not feeling important to him. We Finally got to talk yesterday, and I told him about what happened while he was gone, explained some things that was making it hard for him to want to try and be 'us' again.
After a long talk he said that he now feels more hopeful, and thats a good start for me. We are going to go on a date this week. I just want to be his again, but it will take time.
Yesterday i weighed in at 116. I have eaten some food. Too much in my mind, but i need to keep tricking my body. I am feeling sick in bed right now though.
I'll read your blogs when i have a computer. I'm on my phone. Thanks for all your support!