Lots to say, only a little time

First: About the poll I made. I made that when I wasn't in a good mood. I felt useless, lonely, and nobody cared about me waa wa wa. So I aplogize, just deleted it. I know I do help some of you that read, and I will continue to do so. I guess if you want me to delete this blog(because one person really did vote on it) then stop reading my blog eh? Doesn't matter. Other than trying to help others, mainly why do we all blog? For ourselves. I know that this has been a lot of help to me, and I love the support from everyone. I do my best to support you back. My work computer doesn't always allow me to post on some people's blog. Know that I do read yours and post when I can!



And also THANK YOU for your thinspo input. I think I'll make a poll and gather thinspo for a week depending on which category is highest. And then at the end of it I'll post.

Yesterday I got a call from my agent.

I signed with an agency maybe 6-9 months ago.

I never got a job, and eventually stopped hearing from him.

Yesterday he left me a message saying I had a job opp.

So I called him back.

I'm 99% sure that I'll be an extra for an Olympic Commercial(winter 2010)

oh and I'll be making 250 a day

minus 15-20% commission

i will cry if this falls thru

It would be an answer to my prayers to receive a good chunk of money

especially since I don't know if I'll be able to get anyone anything for xmas

Guess how happy I am today

really happy

I've been quite the insomniac the past two weeks

I felt pretty guilty for eating that burrito yesterday

but it did some good

I slept for 6 hours, waking up once briefly

Ladies and Gents(if any. I'd love to find some male bloggers. anyone know of any?)

This is a record for the past two weeks. I either don't sleep

or

sleep but wake up so often i'd almost rather have just stayed awake

Another reason I'm happy is because of this

One of my texting ana buddies(non blogger) told me her goal weight

i was bored and went to fitday.com

i calculated how much she could eat

and still lose by the date she wanted

then. I did me! Sheesh.

Start date: 12.9.2009

Start weight: 119

End date: 1.31.2009

Goal weight: 110

Calories I can eat: 852

its nice to see reasonable things like that, and realize...i can reach my goals

I'll be going to the gym more, this week has just been way to busy.

plus no sleep

And now for the other happy thing

My best friend is coming home tonight

I'm driving up to the airport to welcome him home

So I must go

Clean my apartment(he might be over tonight)

make myself beautiful

remember to breath

and avoid food :)

Weaselbee- that will be my next blog

How a two pound gain turned into 17...stay tuned

OH! almost forgot. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow morning.

I got off my anti dep. med. Totally making me crazy

I want to get on adderol. I know it would help

I'll explain why if I get them

if not.

sigh

eek I gotta go!!!!

xoxo