In my lowest of lows of my ED one thing I didn't ever abuse was running. Yes I would get obsessive with a set running schedule. Yes I would beat myself up if I missed a run I had planned. That was me just needing to have a routine, and then punishing myself for "failing".
I love running. I love being able to push myself with something, pushing my mind and body (even after 2 minutes into my run I think I can't do another 18). I especially love outdoor running!
I can't wait for spring. I can't wait to do some trail running. The rythmn my body and mind get into while running is comforting to me. And it has been so long since I have been able to run.
After my time at the treatment center I was able to do a couple 5ks. But the fall of 2011 I started relapsing, and then I got pregnant. After I lost the baby, well for many reasons, there was no time(I wasn't making time).
It has literally been almost 1.5 years since I have ran more than once or twice a month.
Currently I average 3 runs a week. This week i will make it 4. My goal is to do the following
2 3-5 mile runs
1 sprint run OR hill run
1 long run 4+ miles
Reason is my friend wants me to run a half marathon with her. The only reason I don't think I will do it is because of money. But I do know I will be running 5ks.
I am so happy