Perfection

I strive for something that I know I can never have in the long run.  Its an up and down climb.  I love and hate myself on and off.  Right now I'm starting to love myself..but only because i've slipped back into self destruction.  How twisted is that?

My weight is going back down along with my fat.  I'm starting to feel cold again due to fat loss.  I used to complain about always being cold.  Yet now that  I'm starting to feel cold again I love it.  I let my body recover from its physical injuries by gaining back some weight.  Now that I can handle more exercise  I will be working on getting my figure slim again.  I'll deal with the cold