I also put a little purple in the front, but it's hard to see
P under the dryer, he said it smelled like old ladies
I am strong and cam fight things on my own. I haven't been giving myself enough credit. I have come a long way the past two years. From ultra needy, can't finish things, must have someone to cry to, drugs, alcohol, cutting, hiding and lying, to name a few.
To: motivated, cry and move forward, sober, honest, lovable, more happy days than sad, can stand my ground.
I still hide sometimes. I don't quite have everything I used to have. But if I can change some of the most horrible things I was doing, I can continue striving for the positive things I want.
I swam 2 miles today! I had a really good workout. I haven't done a swim workout in....maybe 2 years. Back then I was doing junk and didn't have the stamina
Today I was pleasantly surprised to find I could still kick butt. And my lungs are back :)
Today I made my decision, and I told P exactly this:
1 I will try and go to the treatment center tomorrow, get a tour and get my questions answered. I will also tell them i am disappointed with them but trying to not have a bad attitude
2 I will have the therapy session next week with him, me and the therapist. I will hope it helps or affects my attitude. I also hope it will help you be prepared to know how to start coping or knowing what to do when I have harder days.
3 I will comply to be admitted on Monday, November 15, 10:30 am.
4 if my attitude doesn't change within 5 days I will leave. I do not want to waste peoples time and money
5 I will be done with therapy sessions. I am finished with analyzing and dissecting my life. It helped for the past few months bit is no longer having positive effects
6 I truly believe I can handle this on my own. It won't always be easy but I will get there