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Friday, December 14, 2012
Holiday season is hard. I wish I could split myself into 10 people to go to all the parties, receptions, movies, work, etc. I am happy though because P is finished with his finals. We have a busy few weeks, but at least he is stress free.
Sad news - NOT going to LA after christmas. I was really looking forward to it, but his parents can't go anymore. And we also have had a bit of bad luck with car repairs. So WORK WORK WORK is the new agenda. I would love to take the weekend after Christmas and go some where warm, but maybe i will just have to settle for lots of tanning :)
Besides, we will be going to VA in the middle of January. I am so excited.
I see my body slimming. P notices it more and more. I am not really doing a ton of restricting. But, i was eating a TON from Sep-mid Nov. Like fast food every fucking meal. I am content with myself for not over indulging anymore.
My next step is to figure out a schedule where I can get a consistent exercise routine. i was doing well for 2 weeks, then the period happened(mine suck so bad right now because of my IUD). I also just get so burnt out with work. So tired all the time.
I am not allowing myself alcohol until I reach 135. I don't know my current weight. I am too scared to look. My eating habits will change drastically come january.
I hate New years resolutions. I am not calling it that, because thats not what they are to me. I just know that the last few weeks of this year will be relaxing, and worry free. I drink way too much Diet Coke. I don't exercise like i want.
And even though I am going to make changes in Jan, I have already started.
My brain hurts. Having one car sucks. Hope P gets home soon.
Love you all!
Written by Stick Thin at 6:18 PM