You're not alone

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Hey lovely people

I am alive. Not that we'll though.

Unfortunately I have need depressed as fuck. I started drinking again in June. If I can't starve I self harm. If I can't do that I guess I drink? You guys I seriously need help.

Aside from the drinking.

I am actually doing well.


Emotionally. Not.

I am going back to my wine and probably regretting that I wrote this!!!


The Lovely Bones said...

Is there anyone who you talk to about the starve/cut/drink cycle? It sounds like it's really getting you down, you should talk to someone who can help you.
I know how it feels though, my entire Summer holiday has been that exact cycle, those are my only responses to stressful situations now.
I hope you break out of these feelings and feel better soon.
Take care, much love.

Peridot (G+P) said...

I have a worried. Are there any support lines you can call or people you can talk to? If there are please ring them or talk to them *Hugs*

All antidepressants are different, Maybe you can try a different type of them and see what happens? If the numbness gets too much you can tell the doctor and come off them. If it will help you feel better for long enough to start pulling out of the starve/cut/drink cycle it's a good thing.

Right now I'm a mix of numb and buzzed. I'm so used to feeling shit that even a slight bit of buzzed is an amusing novelty.

Take care of yourself, ok? Love you to bits and miss you heaps *Hugs*

Jenn said...

We love you! thanks for the check in. I love that top (sidenote) Take care of yourself and don't be too hard on yourself. You're just trying to cope, finding your way. If you're worried about it, go to the gym.

Love ya Babe

Skinnyy Lovee said...

Hey, I've been reading your blog for over a year now and it's always been so helpful for me to see I'm not the only person dealing with an ED and weight gain, loss, etc.. I've only just joined Blogger and started blogging though. So for my first comment let me say, I'm sorry about all what has happened to you lately, but you are so strong and inspiration to me (: I hope you can get some help for your cycle, it must be hard, but I'm wishing things will work out for you! Sorry if this seems all over the place, it probably reflects my jumpy thoughts. Anyway, I'll stop annoying you now. Take care, !:)

Anonymous said...

I'm here for you if you need someone.
Take care of yourself <3

Ana's Girl said...

*hugs* Hang in there love. You are beautiful, loved, and strong, and i really wish i could somehow find a way for you to add happy to that list. Sending you all my love.

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