I don't want to do it, but I wind up doing it somehow. It had been a long time though.
It's embarrassing. I am a grown woman!
He doesn't understand 'why I would do such a thing'. And you can't explain it, because you just have to know what it feels like to have the urge to hurt yourself.
"you can't allow yourself to be happy. When things are going to well you have to do this"
Maybe I am possessed. I don't know why I do it.
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5 comments:
I am a new follower. I just found your blog this month and have finally caught up. I can't no could I even fathem anything to say. You've been through a lot. Just wanted to say hi and that you're blog has been giving me strength. You are an amazing women!
Sam
I know how hard it is to try and describe the feeling to someone who has absolutely no idea what it feels like. It's like trying to describe the taste of water.
I hope you're okay, it's not something you can just quit forever.
Sorry I didn't mean to delete my first comment.
Sometimes you just have to do what you need to do in order to cope.
Screw society's expectations of behaviours! Look how far THATS gotten us! -.-;
Love you <3
Oh dear. Same thing I found myself doing after a couple of months of abstinence. I think like anything else we are or have been addicted to, this is just a relapse when you weren't on your guard. It gets better! Don't be so harsh on yourself, at least you are trying to stop! Take care:))) You are such an inspiration
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