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Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Being Tan

Makes me feel skinnier. Anyone agree?

So I have had a busy week. We went camping with two other couples. I had a busy time trying to get gear and what have you. Last week I did go on one run. 5.4 miles!!

I went with a friend. I am so out of shape, but I am not going to beat my body to death just to try and keep up with someone. I listened to my body. Sometimes I ran fast, other times I slowed down.

Our first day of camping we did a 3 mile round trip hike. It was so windy up top! My poor 3 pound dog was struggling Ha ha. We also went and played in the river. I have no shame. Well. I do. But I didn't care. I was the only girl in a bikini. I have a post pregnant body, and no tan. Screw everyone! I like bikinis.

Our camping trip was overall fun. It was really windy. A little on the chilly side. It's always fun to just fart around and be away from civilization.

Yesterday was a really bad day. And I haven't told anyone. I should tell my husband why I got sick yesterday, but how do you explain this:

I was doing some drinking. Going through bags and boxes of shit that I didn't even know we had. I found some 'wal tussen'. I used to drink robotussen for a few months to get 'high', when I was 19.

Yesterday I decided to drink the bottle that was 3/4 full. For the first little bit I was fine. Then I just had to lie down and pass out. After about 3 hours of sleep I used the bathroom, I won't go there.

So going to the pool yesterday when my husband got home made me nervous. He didn't know why I got sick. And I can't tell him. I am afraid to tell him. I hate letting him down.

That stuff made me so sick. I am a dumb shit.

Today I will run and do a workout. I so excited for summer!

5 comments:

Miranda said...

Well, you certainly won't do it again so don't feel too bad about not telling. Go you in your bikini!!! Camping sounds fun but yes, it is a lot of work to prep for.

Sam said...

Never be ashamed to strut your stuff!!!

Sam

Katie Elizabeth said...

I was just telling my bf how having a tan makes me feel skinnier. Don't beat yourself up too bad over not telling him. I didn't tell my bf I purged yesterday 3 times. We all have our little secrets. Keep your head up beautiful.
XOXO

Peridot (G+P) said...

YAY for the run and listening to your body and not thrashing yourself into the ground. I have no respect for the guys at the gym who aren't as smart as you and overload themselves and end up being yelled at by the trainers for injuring themselves :3

Woot for the bikini! Go Honeybadger, go you good thing! :D

<3

VictoriaCrimson said...

That you're even propelling yourself to do a 5+ mile run is awesome within itself! Much admiration from ovaa here.

If only tans could be instant, permanent, and risk-free.. ahh.