but at the same time not pooping too soon
I ran 4 miles today
So total time was around 33 minutes
I enjoy running during the hottest time of day
it makes it harder to keep a fast pace
but i like the challenge
i am weird
I try to not weigh myself too often. It is very triggering for my because I can get quite
I am happy that the scale is down a couple pounds.
I have been doing more lifting and not just running
so for a while i think i was gaining muscle weight
to be honest. i don't care as much about weight, as I do about what my body looks like
This may make some people mad, but I'm going to say it
obsessing about numbers is silly. Weighing yourself everyday is not productive
too many factors affect your weight and it WILL fluctuate
But that is just my opinion.
Life after treatment has been interesting. I think at the time I needed it. But I learned to make
excuses for my eating. "Listen to your body" "be intuitive" "your body will naturally start
craving what it needs"
I call bull shit. I used those excuses to eat far too many sweets. The body does not need as
much sweets as I had been allowing myself. I was obviously over eating and no, it was
not my "Eating Disorder" telling me so, it was just true.
I am glad that I was able to get help for my depression though, because my husband and I
are so much closer! We are trying to start a family, and that is keeping my mind in a
Is it disturbing to anyone that I miss restricting. I miss the looks people give me. The
worry and attention i received from loved ones. I hope that we get pregnant soon.
because i'm having a hard time not getting back into my old ways.