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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Reinforcing the Behavior

I am not getting my needs met right now at treatment. I go there for 9 hours a day. I do what I'm asked. I work on challenges they give me.

I
Am
Broke

I need to start working. I told my therapist the urgency. I'd still be going all day 3 days a week. We'll see what happens tomorrow.

I wish they would treat me as an individual, believe what I say, listen! Do I have to restrict, cut or purge to get your attention???? If I come tomorrow with bandages will you finally give me the treatment that my Parents are funding. I feel like it's reinforcing my behavior.

I'm not going to hurt myself. I'm going to sleep. Tomorrow is a new day.

My husband painting my toes Christmas day :)



3 comments:

Fed Up said...

Awww...how sweet!!! Sounds like you don't feel like you are getting what you want out of treatment. No matter what you have given it a go. Being broke sucks!!

*Broken* said...

I know what it´s like to not get the treatment you´re paying for. You should wait a little, maybe talk with some of the people there and if they continue like this you could switch to another treatment center.
I really hope it works out
xx

ainasworld said...

Lucky you to have a husband who will paint your nails. I get an earful for painting my nails as it stinks according to him.

Hang in there and may 2011 be a good year for you.

*Hugz*