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Tuesday, April 29, 2014

A blog of reflection

Hello and welcome to my world of insomnia.



I cannot believe its been 6 years since I started this blog.

I've never considered deleting this blog because there are parts of my life here that I cannot recall. Simply because I was so ill and in the thick of my eating disorder.

Today I find myself in a weird mood. I have been relapsing since October ish 2013. By no means has it been a secret to anyone.

I have been in therapy for almost 2 years straight. I go every 4 weeks now.

Does the eating disorder ever go away? I feel myself terrified of what other demon would take its place. Or am I terrified that I could actually be happy without it?

How do you make the decision to move on? I developed this eating disorder 7 years ago, but the reasons or cause of why I have one is rooted deeper than I thought.

I press on. I try to keep up a fight despite the feeling of defeat. If you are on Instagram please find me. (@mindycelloing) I hope you are well.

Cheers.


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4 comments:

Peridot (G+P) said...

Wow, time flies doesn't it?

My blog has been useful for recording swathes of time I can no longer remember. Ugh, there was a reason why i wanted to forget them though >.<

I don't know if it will go away. If you can erase the reason you needed the coping mechanism in the first place then you no longer need it. The more time passes the bigger a life it gets on its own.

Miss you and love and and sending you internet hugs and love <3

Ell said...

Mindy!!! Oh my gosh hi!!! I check your blog so often lol. Silly I'm sure! But I'm so sorry you have been having such a hard time. Message me on FB sometime. I loved you runway photos you added!
with love,
Ell (lyndee)

Another Nameless Face said...

I was rereading old posts of mine and saw some of your comments on them.. I can never delete mine for the same reason, I just keep it private now. Email me at Stephanie.ginn@gmail.com so we can chat? I miss this community and the support it brought

Anonymous said...

Heyhey

It's been ages since you last posted-- how are you doing?

I don't think it ever goes away. But, eventually, it gets easier to push back. At least that's my mechanism. I'm more of a ignore something till it's gone type of girl anyway.

I can't believe it's been 6 years... been following you for so long now. Just odd how time flies.

Love