She invite me to her "shake" party.
Me: sorry that stuff is way to triggering for my eating disorder.
Two weeks later my other sister invites me.
I gave the same response.
I just am so triggered. I am already teetering on relapse mode. When I see the obsession and constant focus from them, it makes me want to puke. It also makes me think
why am I not trying to lose weight? I should be trying to lose weight. I should be only eating once a day and drinking shakes like they do
You get bet that I get the worst anxiety just thinking of what we would talk about if we got together " weight loss. Weight loss weight loss weight loss."
I love them. But I can't be around them right now. I just can't. I am happy they are achieving what they want. I truly am.
But I have to set boundaries. And I wish I didn't
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