I cannot believe its been 6 years since I started this blog.
I've never considered deleting this blog because there are parts of my life here that I cannot recall. Simply because I was so ill and in the thick of my eating disorder.
Today I find myself in a weird mood. I have been relapsing since October ish 2013. By no means has it been a secret to anyone.
I have been in therapy for almost 2 years straight. I go every 4 weeks now.
Does the eating disorder ever go away? I feel myself terrified of what other demon would take its place. Or am I terrified that I could actually be happy without it?
How do you make the decision to move on? I developed this eating disorder 7 years ago, but the reasons or cause of why I have one is rooted deeper than I thought.
I press on. I try to keep up a fight despite the feeling of defeat. If you are on Instagram please find me. (@mindycelloing) I hope you are well.
Cheers.
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