So far today I've been staying strong
Breakfast: Trail Mix coffee 200 ish
Lunch: apple 60-70 cals
Sometimes I feel like giving up. Letting my body have control. My life would be so much happier without my ed. Getting help. But then I think about how much control I'd have to give up. I think about gaining weight and that scares me. Thats when I look at myself in the mirror and decide that it is easier this way. Even if I end up lonely, I have myself, I have my ed. I cried last satruday, hard. I started hanging up pictures to inspire me. As I was bawling I told myself I'd never really need anyone as long as I could have myself. If that makes any sense.
Stay strong
GO ORANGE
it makes perfect sense..
ReplyDeletehaving something constant in your life like your ed keeps you grounded, knowing you are real. and you have control.
stay strong :)
go orange!